I have finally reached 19 years old this year and I will be completing my poly year 3 this year. This year's birthday is the one that has the most happening that had ever happened to me in my life. Had been so troubled since weeks before my birthday. Had been getting more and more tired of the life that I have been living right now. It was also untill now, after 3 years of me being in poly, I finally released what is so different of me from the other poly students or people of the same age around me.
Recently because of all the year 1 that came into RP, and also me being even more quiet in school compared to when i first came to RP, I saw something that made me feel so different from the others. I do not have the passion and energetic look which almost all poly students and people of my age have. I am a totally "no life" guy in other people's eye. I had been working so hard for my grades and also for my work. All i did this 3 years was either studying or working my ass off.
In the past, working at udders is a form of escape for me to destress and pull myself away from school work. But now, working at udders is something I dread....especially after what had happened... although it might not be my fault totally but I am indeed the one that created this mess.
My stress level and loneliness feeling just keep growing as I proceed in my life. Untill the current stage of my life, I had been battling and overcoming almost all challenges given to me by myself. So many many time...I wish that I can just give up everything and at the same time having someone comforting me and telling me that I had did great untill now...that's all I had wished for.
